I've had this Xanga for over 3 years..
That should be a record or something...

I cannot bring myself to delete it..lol

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So here's that poem.. and if you don't know me.. you won't get it.. Don't bother asking! ha

If you could only see  things through my eyes
See there's nothing I really have to hide
Maybe if you'd try to better understand
We could once again be friends

But your words are harsh and thoughts unclear
I wish I didn't believe you when you said it was sincere
Your accusations tear me up inside
What happened to the woman in whom I could confide?

Don't you remember when you were my wall
When you were the reason I could stand tall
Don't you remember when life wasn't this hard
When relationships hadn't been stretched this far

But there comes a time when every wall falls
And there comes a time when we lose it all
So let go of what you think is best
And put all of  your worries to rest

Have you ever wondered if I could be telling the truth?
That maybe I've realized I don't want to lie to you?
Or is that absurd? Ridiculous? Insane?
Would you rather just live in the shame?

The shame that I've caused you
All the shit I've put you through
When will you realize that I'm not perfect..
No.. not like you...

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&& in that moment sitting next to him.. I realized how unbelievably kissable he really was...

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I Hateeee That I am Falllingggg In .L.O.V.E. with him..

This morning sucked but oh well..

I wrote this poem today in study hall, I almost started crying when I wrote it.. I will post it tomorrow, because I left my notebook at school..

Ha, so every night I turn it to channel 20 or 21 the UF music station thing.. and last night, right when I turned it.. It said "You have to fight.. fight for your right to parrrrttyyyy" Now, I don't know about you guys, but as soon as I heard it, I CRACKED up and thought of Lishh! lol I miss herrr!

I am really beginning to miss Liz and my's late night summer walks around Lake View, peeing on Lake View trees.. hahaha.. Really, I just miss the summer in general. It's so hard to believe how fast time has gone by.. It seems like just yesterday I was in the 4th grade praying time would go by fast so I could go to middle school and now I am in high school and it's so crazy.. In a way, I miss the days when we didn't have to worry about anything.. When futures weren't on the line and college and/or graduation were words that seemed light years away.. Most people will probably say those things are like 3 years away, but after realizing how fast the past 5 years have gone, 3 years seems too soon... way too soon..

Declaring I was going to stay single really paid off.. I am starting to realize so much.. and not only about me, but about life. Maybe I am just a 15 year old girl who, in all reality, doesn't know anything about life, but maybe I don't need to... and even if, I know so much more than I need to to get me by..

Taste of Chaos is in 3 days and Ashleigh won't be there  That makes her sad.

"It does a funny thing to you, love does. Once it pulls you in, you can experience the most incredible things."-The Price of Kissing

...I believe in the promises we made...

So, have you ever asked yourself why people always want to be popular?  Because personally, I think popularity is the biggest line of bull shit ever.. Well, maybe right after barbie dolls.. Yulp, don't get me started on barbie dolls.. And we wonder why girls are becoming more corrupt...!

Spring Break = 4 weeks.. So close, yet so far...

"There comes a point in all of our lives when childhood drifts away like a cloud."-The Price of Kissing

Just because I loveee Matt! lol

FUCK YOU MR.MOTHER BOARD! haha

My friends... crackkkk meee uppp!

Chad Stief is the biggest cutie everrrrr!